Imagine the most awkward moment you could ever come across. Got it? Now at least double it. That's how weird and uncomfortable my Saturday was. I went to work, as usual, and I expected a calm, boring day. It usually is like that on the week-ends. I brought along some Math assignments to keep me "thrilled". And then I saw who the guests were. I almost took my stuff and ran away. MacAsshole was staying with us. The day I had feared for 5 moths had arrived. Of course tons of questions ran through my mind: what will he say? how will I behave etc. But most of all, I was angry with myself for not putting in the extra effort that morning to look cute and pretty. I thought It'd be an empty hotel. Oh, how wrong I was.
And then he came down the stairs. He was shocked to see me, but he gathered himself quickly. Then he decided to talk to me. He talked to me as if nothing had happened. I was so out of place, I felt like my nerves were going to burst out from under my skin. At some point he decided that because I replied and was almost polite with him, we had talked through our issues and could be friends again. I don't quite see how that's ever going to be a possibility, but like the great Justin Bieber said: "Never say never" (you do understand that I only carry disgust towards the JB girl, right?!). He acted like he never hurt me. He acted as if it was no big deal. It was huge to me.
Oh, my furious ranting is just not angry enough. I'm might have gone soft. One thing, one development I reached was: I have no emotions toward him. No anger, no fondness, no hate. What I feel is nothing. That's a pretty good development I think.
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