Summer. It has arrived.

The fact that summer is actually here means I will be wearing uncomfortable shoes and outfits for the better part of the season. I have re-joined the workforces and am now, again, an administrator. Pace yourselves for the awesomeness that is my "career". 

Anyway, this is not news. Where else would I go for the summer. It happens to be far enough from my home that I don't have to visit every week. It's also close enough so that if I need to I can.

But again, this is not news. 

School term is over. Also not news.

I think I will now explain my relationship drama, as in person I might be lacking the social skills to do so. So, S.S, this here is me trying to explain myself.

In one of my previous posts I might have said something about talking some things through with a certain person from my past and he was smart enough to catch the fact that I was talking about him. So, he has been asking about it and I haven't felt comfortable enough to answer because I am sometimes unreasonably socially impaired. And now I will try to explain myself.

When our relationship ended, it was, for me, very hard to understand and even somewhat hurtful. Then he and I had some periods when we talked a little bit online. And the end of our relationship was always hammering in my brain and I felt the hurt again. That was a long time ago. Like almost 5 years ago. I think now I am healed from it and can officially move on and have a normal conversation with him without it hammering at the back of my brain. 

So, I contacted him, because I feel our end was not really an end. It was very... confusing and somewhat uncertain. I would like to open my heart and mind again and maybe see if we could get the good times back. It sounds like I'm some melodramatic girl pining for a guy. I might be a little bit. Sorry.

Anyway, we went out and it was really good. I felt comfortable and happy. I was afraid I might not be able to relax around him, but it was like the past 5 years never happened. I hope it wasn't our final outing. I'd like to spend more time with him. Unfortunately, I am very busy. Work - trip to Denmark - work - music festival - work - Ms Bunny is visiting - work - operation and now we've arrived in august when I might actually get to have a few days off here and there. 

He lives in the area I am from and sometimes still visit. So this would make it a long-distance thing, which in my experience doesn't work at all. Like never. That is something I am concerned about. I don't know even why! There's nothing, yet, to worry about. 

Anyways,

I am as usual ranting about unimportant things. 

With love, and embarrassment, 

R.